Where are you going?

     I feel like the past me has definitely evolved in my short time here at Converse. The panic attacks have subsided, the friends have started to substantiate, and my views have started to shift. I was overly optimistic about college life I believe. In fact, that's part of what contributed to the gajillion panic attacks I had in the first two-three weeks I was here. But that's changed now, and I'm much more realistic with my expectations that I have about what life SHOULD be like at this point.
     I am coming out of my shell more, and I'm figuring out ways to culture new interests that I have, like a college ministry. Church was such a HUGE part of my life, and now that I'm here, I have come to the sad realization about how many people just need to hear about Jesus and understand His grace. So I've been inspired to start some ministry, and I'm super pumped to see where this ministry will lead. I have also realized the importance that my family has in my life. I miss them much more than I thought I would, but I have also grown so much. So much so that it is becoming more awkward to go home because I see the change that I'm missing out on while I'm changing drastically and I know that my family is missing out on that. But I believe this is helping me develop into a mature young lady who can really make her own place in the world.

     I am now more solid in my beliefs and what I stand for. I am ready to take on research opportunities and explore my career field more in depth. I am making a new home for myself and finding friends to support me along the way. I'm finding passion in music therapy. I am at a point where I'm ready to throw myself into my music passionately, relentlessly, and recklessly even, so that I can follow God's will for my life and do what I am called to do.
     I look forward to deepening the relationships that have started to take root these next few years. I can't wait to research answers to my questions and to discover the core of my being. I want to see the Converse ring on my finger, find my little sister(s), and be thrown in the engagement fountain (although, I need a fiancé for that first!), and so many more traditions that make Converse who she is today. I look forward to becoming even more independent and courageous. I want to discover my potential as a leader not only in my school, but in my community and in the world as well. I have big plans, and Converse is the place to be to make thing happen!